Monday, August 16, 2004
8/16/2004 07:41:00 PM

wad a day. its the first the of seventh month.i felt nutink abt it..coz i'm innocent. durning morning..sumtink kept turning me back to slp and warn me not to go to sch. Anyway..i went. We got 2 farking periods of english..actually english was a cool subject, but definetly not that deafy teo boon leng. he sux..so obvious that he was alwayz against me. 4 years plus in GM..no teachers pick on me, cant denined that all my teachers dotes and lurve mi..except him.
During chinese, eat ate a little bit of the time, den huang da ma here..while he was preparing to leave, huang da ma offered her period to him..so total 3 periods! wad the hell..i was sick and tired..i mananged to be that standard of attentive in class. I am just his dog..what he wanna ask to do..i did.He alwayz lurve to pick on me and ask me to answer questions..and stuff, perhaps he wanna gib mi a chance to show or sumtink?
it was my second day of my monthly pain..yet he still did that on mi. when the lesson was ending..i stand and thew sum watse paper of angie. he tried hard to stop me but he failed. Hey plz..the distance was juz a few inch apart from me yet my seat was 1 m away..of coz i juz threw them away. I acted quite clam and cool and not admitting my mistakes..plz, which part of the law book state that i'm wrong? anyway, i was being call out of the class fer another tournament wif him. I mind my words and said wad i am suppose to and i not going to apologise. He said i accused him frm saying that he was showing biasness towards me..but he did yea! hey..i've grown up.
i cried..tears flow while talking to him..and of coz lots of passer by. Hey i not showing any pityness of stuff..i'm not in gd mood, thinking over my family stuff..my godmum was angry wif me coz i am sum sort belong to the christians family..tinking abt relationship, sort of tink..really stressed! I dun cried over him..over that matter, i sweared. My mind was crossing those stuff thruout the day. I was boarding of such stuff fer 2 days..and been tearing fer 2 days..exclusive of today.
anyway..life of mine started to turn blend..no colours. i am worried abt my result..there lots of judgement to be made. i am not really satfied the way he teach..he lecture..tell me..what shld i do? sucide?? no..a little stupid..but did cross my mind several times...tell mi..what can i do? Plz..i nid respone..i nid actions..i need to see sum colours. anyway thanks angie,eugene ng, dessy, nicholas, baowen, alan..andd those whu try to cool me down and cheer me up. thankz..i appeciate it.

rainbowic smile-JAM